This Country

What kind of a country do we live in? You know, I used to think that this was a place of freedom. I used to think this was a country, where, like my home, I could speak my mind, and not get ridiculed for what I had to say. I used to think I could make something of myself and be somebody in this country. I used to think I had a say in the happenings taking place in our nations capital. I used to think I could make a difference.

How naive I was, for I am a simply girl. 

I am not a Mexican illegal. I am not "African-American". I am a white girl, of European decent, born and raised right here in California, The US of A.

I am not poor. I do not collect un-employment, and neither do my parents. I still live at home and therefore make enough to buy my own car and live comfortably.

My parents are not lower-class citizens. My dad is a successful business owner, who makes enough for us to at least attempt a life of some comfort.

I am not a part of any union. I actually work for my money. I believe in the independence of women, but not at the expense of their children.

I am not lesbian. I am heterosexual, and no, I do not question my orientation...I like guys. I like how they look, smell, and taste, and how they want to take care of me and mine.

I am not Atheist, Muslim, Jewish, Hindu, into Scientology, or whatever else you want to peg on the religion list. I am a Christian, who has an unwavering faith in God.

In short, I am your average middle-class American. So why is this all a bad thing?

Because I literally have no voice. I used to think that I could say what I thought. But no. In college, they tell you that all views are respected in the class room. But they are not. A lesbian can get up and talk about her relationship with her girlfriend, but I can't get up and tell everyone how wonderful being a hetero is. They make you question every little thing. Your foundation of belief and trust can be destroyed with a single class of American Government. But if I question this....it is simply not allowed.

I can't get money to go to school because I am just a middle class white girl. My parents make to much, and I'm to European. Never mind that I'm the youngest of 10. Never mind that my GPA is amazing for someone who's been in community college for as long as I have.

But the guy whose parents ran here from their country, with not legality, can get everything, EVERYTHING for FREE! Tuition. Books. Entrance to State. Not me...I take a year off just to save to go to University.

I used to think that I had a say in what happened in this great nations fair capital. Do I? Why not, you ask? Have any of you noticed, my fair blog readers, that this government is doing things that none of us would agree to? Never mind the healthcare bill. Lets talk taxes. Lets talk the countries deficit, that keeps getting worse. And why? Because this government is funding all these groups and programs that I, as a white European American, can not get into.

Why is every time I bring up politics at the dinner table, everyone either gets upset or starts crying? Because we are desolate. We are disillusioned with our government and our country. We can do nothing to change where our country is.

I guess, all my bloggers out there that I hope read this...I guess what I'm saying is that I'm frustrated. I find that I can do nothing. I am seen as just a 20-something who doesn't really have her head screwed on right. You have to have age and money to get things done in this world...of which I have neither. And I feel as though the whole of the world works against me, simply for the means of having someone to work against. This government is failing...even I can see it. 

I'm not inciting a revolution...but I'm not so sure its a bad idea. 

If you read this, and feel the same way....then just know, you aren't alone. There is at least one person out there who feels as you do.